The devil was working really hard on me today. It was hard for me to control my temper. I woke up wanting to mow the lawn. When I pulled out the lawnmower, I saw I would have to pump up one the tires; no big deal. I got the pump but the air wasn’t going into the tire like it should. It was difficult to push down on the pump’s handle. I tried to work with it but after getting frustrated quickly I threw it down. I walked away to calm down. Mom got home and tried to get it to work. After much effort she finally got the tire pumped up. I made it around our big yard about 5 laps when the mower started puttering and dying on me. I brought it back to the house and mom called a technician to see what to do. When I did that, I took the mower back out and made about 3 more passes when it died on me again and wouldn’t crank back up. So I had to push it back to the house this time. Another phone call to a technician and taking the gas cap off to crank it, the mower started back up and sounded normal. I was so upset about all that happened I was yelling to my mom about how I was annoyed and had somewhere to be and didn’t have all day to be messing with a mower that should work perfectly fine. It is new and people should build their products a lot better than the thing we got stuck with. The only thing keeping me somewhat sane was music in my ears. Music helps me for all my moods. It speaks to me, calms me, comforts me. With little problems the rest of the way I cut the rest of the grass then quickly got ready to leave for dinner then FHE. The lesson seemed suiting for me. It was about adversity. The rest of the day was better. I took my frustrations out playing volleyball…lots of volleyball.
It seems like whenever tough times come, they pile on. It’s never just one thing. How we handle the trials that come our way show a lot about our character. I didn’t show very good character today. I didn’t handle the trials that came my way well at all. I have become quite the pessimist lately. I don’t like it but it’s kinda like something that has completely taken over me. I know better but yet I don’t change my attitude. Lately I feel like I’m stuck in a place I wouldn’t wish on anyone, figuratively speaking. At times I have to force myself to be happy. Now I’m left to figure out the next step. I need to get back to how I used to be – optimistic, happy, chill, easygoing. Oh how I miss those days! I refuse to let my trials get the best of me. I am the only person in control of my happiness. I have a long road ahead complete with potholes and roadblocks. I will progress to the positive and endure to the end.
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